Cayman Summer

Mormon girl Leesie has life figured out--until devastated Michael lands in her high school. CAYMAN SUMMER is the third novel in Michael and Leesie's romance that began with TAKEN BY STORM. My readers rallied around me—giving me the guts to release UNBROKEN CONNECTION (Book #2) independently. I launched this blog because I wanted them with me every step as I wrote CAYMAN SUMMER. I posted the novel as I wrote each scene. Now this blog is devoted to all things Michael and Leesie.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Some Old, Some New

My hubby is jetlagged and sleeping. My friends left for the airport. And I'm back with Michael and Leesie. I'm always like this when I'm working on a story I love--totally obsessed. Besides, Michelle threw down the gauntlet and I couldn't resist picking it up. Great challenge, Michelle. Thank you.

So here's some old, some new. I revised Michael's chat with Kim. Do you think this works better? And, of course, I rewrote the rough draft of Leesie's drastic new poem, plus added Michael's dive log. I'm going to add a chat with Kim to round out chapter four. Chapter Four!! Yes. Watch for that on Monday.

MICHAEL WALDEN / CHATSPOT LOG / 2:35 PM 04/28

liv2div says: hey, Kim…it’s Michael.

Kimbo69 says: Leesie’s Michael? Didn’t know we were friends. I’m so not talking to you.

liv2div says: I need your help.

Kimbo69 says: No way. Leesie’s my best friend…you broke her heart, ground it into minced meat, and fed it to the sharks. Go back to your pretty prostitute—or buy a new one. Stay away from Leesie…you messed up her life enough. I know the whole no-sex thing must be tough on you, but that’s no excuse—you promised, her. She hasn’t been online. What have you done to her?

liv2div says: you haven’t heard?

Kimbo69 says: Don’t tell me you’re back together.

liv2div says: Leesie crashed her pickup driving home from BYU

Kimbo69 says: Crashed? Leesie?

liv2div says: yeah, last Thursday

Kimbo69 says: I don’t believe you.

liv2div says: why would I make this up?

Kimbo69 says: Why don’t I know about it?

liv2div says: her parents haven’t called you?

Kimbo69 says: I don’t think they have my number. You’re serious?

liv2div says: I don’t joke much anymore, Kim…haven’t had much to laugh about for a long time

Kimbo69 says: I used to feel sorry for you but not after what you pulled in Thailand. If this is some kind of trick to get me to help you get back with her, it’s not going to work.

liv2div says: freak, Kim…don’t you care what happened to Leesie?

Kimbo69 says: She banged up her truck. Big deal…craa-aap, she must have been hurt or she would have been online. We were supposed to chat. Oh, crap. Is she dead? Why didn’t you say that?

liv2div says: calm down…she’s not dead…lots of broken stuff…it’s rough

Kimbo69 says: Don’t you dare tell me to calm down! How bad is it? What’s broken? My gosh, my gosh, is she like paralyzed?

liv2div says: the pickup’s totaled

Kimbo69 says: I don’t care about the damn pickup. She’s dying, isn’t she? What hospital is she in? I need to come see her. Don’t let her die.

liv2div says: listen a minute…stop jumping in before I can type out what’s happening…she’ll be okay

Kimbo69 says: Okay? Like paralyzed in a wheelchair the rest of her life or totally fine?

liv2div says: physically she should recover…totally…she’s got a stitched up head…they shaved off half her hair…her hand flew into her nose when the air bag blew so they are both busted…her collarbone snapped, ribs cracked, sprained ankles…she’s in a ton of pain

Kimbo69 says: Tell me the hospital she’s in. I’m coming right now. To hell with my classes. When did this happen? Crap, why didn’t you tell me before? You suck, you know. You really, really suck.

liv2div says: hang on a minute…you can’t visit her

Kimbo69 says: Like hell, I can’t. Leesie and I are soul-mates. You don’t have a clue what that means. I’m coming.

liv2div says: Hang on, Kim…I need to tell you the worst part

Kimbo69 says: It gets worse? You suck at breaking it gently. What are you hiding? What’s really happened to her?

liv2div says: I’ve been trying to tell you…Phil was with her…you know, her brother…he didn’t make it

Kimbo69 says: Phil’s dead? Really? Dead? That’s horrible. Awful. Oh, my poor girl, Leesie. She’s taking it bad?

liv2div says: really bad…I thought if anyone could deal with something like this it was her, but she blames herself…won’t tell anyone what happened…not even me

Kimbo69 says: I’ll come visit today. Where is she?

liv2div says: she so messed up…she thinks God won’t forgive her…she’s turned her back on her family and all her Mormon stuff

Kimbo69 says: Leave it to me. I’ll talk to her.

liv2div says: Leesie’s broken up more inside than out…her wounds will heal…I don’t know about the soul part

Kimbo69 says: I told her once I wanted her down here groveling in the dirt with the rest of us mortals…but no, not her…you can’t let her go under, Michael. DO YOU HEAR ME?

liv2div says: I need some help, Kim…I think she’ll listen to you

Kimbo69 says: Of course she will. Get her right now. Tell her it’s me.

liv2div says: she’s not here right now

Kimbo69 says: when will she be back?

liv2div says: the nurses have her…I don’t know

Kimbo69 says: I have to go to a stupid class that I’ve blown off too many times. I’ll head out after that. We’ll have a long, long girl talk.

liv2div says: she can’t really type

Kimbo69 says: Face to face, numbskull. What hospital is she in?

liv2div says: they released her Sunday night…she couldn’t bear going home…so we ran away together

Kimbo69 says: You kidnapped her?

liv2div says: rescued her…we’re both eighteen we can do what we want

Kimbo69 says: you total creep…how could you be so selfish at a time like this?

liv2div says: she was desperate, begged me…freak, it broke my heart to see her so pathetic

Kimbo69 says: That’s no excuse for doing something so stupid.

liv2div says: I tried to talk her out of it…still trying…she won’t even let me call her parents

Kimbo69 says: You stole her from the hospital with all those injuries?

liv2div says: her mom wanted to take her home…look after her there…Leesie’s so eaten up with guilt…she can’t stand to be near her mom…it’s sad, wrong…but I’m here…I’m taking care of her…better than her parents could

Kimbo69 says: I’m sure you are. You disgust me—taking advantage of my best friend when she’s like this.

liv2div says: Leesie never told me you were vicious…and for the record I’m NOT taking advantage of her

Kimbo69 says: How did you even get back in the picture? What happened to your concubine?

liv2div says: don’t call her that…I helped Suki get out of a bad scene…that’s it…I never touched her

Kimbo69 says: Right. You got Leesie to believe that?

liv2div says: she believed it enough to send that missionary dude packing

Kimbo69 says: Jaron? Crap. I was rooting for him. Not you. Not you. Not you.

liv2div says: whatever, Kim…hate me all you want…will you talk to Leesie?

Kimbo69 says: where are you guys…can I phone her?

liv2div says: Leesie won’t let me tell anyone

Kimbo69 says: Thailand?

liv2div says: of course not…I’ll let her tell you…I think chatting would be safest…she’ll go for that…I’ll have to do the typing until they take the cast of her left hand and let her use her right arm again

Kimbo69 says: What happened to her arm?

liv2div says: She can’t move it because of her collarbone. The arm’s okay.

Kimbo69 says: It’ll be weird knowing you’re eavesdropping.

liv2div says: you’ll never know I’m there…then you’ll do it?

Kimbo69 says: Of course, I’ll do it. Don’t be stupid.

liv2div says: just don’t get too gross, okay?

Kimbo69 says: Me? Never.

Chapter Four

LEESIE’S MOST PRIVATE CHAPBOOK

POEM # 76

Nurses dressed in soft sunshine yellow

pour into my breezy room.

Soft island hands,

some black, some white,

undress, unwrap, unwind,

expertly draping and

robing so I’m never

exposed, so gentle I only

cry out once.

The clinical whirlpool bath

isn’t like a hotel hot tub—

metal, deep, sterile.

I’m in it up to my neck,

collarbone brace and all,

my straggled hair bundled

in a clear shower cap,

left hand encased in plastic.

“Don’t get your face wet,” they tell me.

“When can I get this off?”

I point to my nose wrappings.

“We’ll check with your doctor.”

“I don’t have a doctor.”

One glances at my chart.

“You do now.”

The enormity of the burden Michael

has shouldered for me makes

my eyes glisten.

“Don’t cry, sugar. It’ll make your

cast soggy.”

I stay in so long I’m dizzy.

“You need to eat.”

“Not hungry.”

The “sugar” nurse brings soft

cotton underthings and a large

frothy fruit drink rich

with banana and mango.

I sip and remember.

“I think I used to

use this on my hair.”

Sugar and company clean

my wounds and soothe them

with aloe and ointment.

They wrap my ribs fresh,

change my wet brace for a dry one,

sling my right arm.

“Keep that immobile,” Sugar orders.

I nod meekly.

My ankles are blue bruised

but not nearly as swollen.

They wrap them up tight—get

me to walk. It hurts but in a clean

triumphant way—like a good stretch.

My walk ends at a black and gold salon

with too many mirrors.

Bruised eyes, fat lip, plastered up nose,

ugly, ugly stitches and so much of my hair

shaved away—nearly half my head.

A stylist washes what’s left clean.

“This is going to be a challenge.”

She holds up the ugly, wet mop

that seems so foreign. That’s not my

hair. Not my long, full mane. Not the soft

locks that Michael tangled into knots

whenever we made out.

The stylist frowns at it.

“You’ll have limited mobility. Looking

after this will be tough. Will

you have help?”

I think of my mom at home

who would wash and blow dry

my hair every day if I asked her.

“Cut it, then. I don’t care.”

The stylist chops it to my shoulders,

parts it on the side,

experiments with a comb over,

but there isn’t enough hair

in the world to cover my stitches

I stare in the mirror and hate it,

detest the silliness of the pathetic

subterfuge, loathe who I am,

what I’ve become, revile

against any effort to cover

up my damnation

with any attempt at normal.

The stylist shrugs her shoulders,

agreeing with my silent assessment.

Yes. It’s awful. Yes, you are hideous.

Yes, it’s no use. She combs a bit of hair

down over my forehead. “Bangs

will help when this shaved part

grows back.”

Shaved?

Good

idea.

Michael, sun-kissed and saltwater fresh,

sleeps on my bed when I hobble

back to my room. I dismiss

my guides with a promise to rest.

I touch his hand to wake him.

“Michael. Hey.”

His eyes open,

focus,

explode.

“Freak, Leese. What the hell

did they do to you?”

He’s on his feet, wrapping

me in his arms. “I’m sorry, babe.”

He’s shakes with emotion.

“I thought they’d look after you.”

He chokes back a sob.

“Come on let’s get out of here.

I’ll find someplace else.”

He touches my stark white

new-shaved scalp like it’s lethal.

“What did they do with it?”

“My hair?”

“Did they save it?”

Tears fill his eyes.

“I don’t think so.”

“It’s gone?” His finger withdraws.

“It’ll grow back even this way.”

He swallows hard. “But your hair, Leese.”

“I couldn’t look after it.”

His head shakes denial.

“That’s why I got nurses.”

I close my eyes to block out his pain.

“I can’t stay here forever.”

“I would have washed it for you,

babe, every day.” His voice throbs.

I open my eyes and watch tears,

one by one roll down his cheeks.

I wipe at his tears with my

robe’s sleeve. I never thought of that—

thought of him—thought of

what he might need to hold

on to.

I thought only me.

And what I’d lost.

I try to kiss away his tears

and feel like a coward.

A cruel, selfish coward

who crushes, maims,

and kills.

MICHAEL’S DIVE LOG – VOLUME #10

Dive Buddy: Leesie

Date: 04/28

Dive #:

Location: Grand Cayman

Dive Site:

Weather Condition:

Water Condition:

Depth:

Visibility:

Water Temp:

Bottom Time:

Comments:

I don’t know how we go from me sobbing like a wimped-out baby over Leesie’s lost hair to us making out on her cushy white bed, but that’s what happens. She starts it. I don’t resist.

I have to be careful not to jar her injuries, careful not to lose control. Leesie offers no barriers but makes no demands. She just lies there on her back. I’m on my side so I can reach her. We kiss soft and slow. Her lip doesn’t bleed this time. It hurts her, though. I can tell, even though she kisses me over and over. The movement of her mouth on mine is incredibly tender—like I am the patient. And she the comforter.

I move my mouth to her unhurt lower lip, suck softly a moment, slip my lips to her chin, her neck, her ear. I hesitate a moment then move my mouth to the velvet soft skin of her new shaved head, exploring every inch, trying to fall in love again.

“I’m sorry,” she whispers.

I pause and murmur, “More safe skin,” and go back to kissing it, absorbing every contour of her skull into my soul. I avoid the jagged gash and purple stitches holding it together.

Her scalp is warm, vibrant, alive against my lips. That’s what counts, I try to convince myself. She’s here, alive—not on that mountainside dead.

“I love you, Michael, forgive me for making it harder for you.”

“Will you marry me, Leese, at the end of the summer?”

“I’ll marry you tomorrow.”

“Sorry, babe. No can do. I want you in shape for 24/7.”

We both laugh at that, and I cradle her head, afraid to let it go again.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Next poem - in the rough

Yikes! I didn't have time to get this revised. My hubby's home from a long trip, and we've got friends visiting for the weekend.

But I didn't want to miss posting. This is such a great way to write a book. Who knew? I love getting immediate feedback, and the pressure to create every day is really good. Thanks everybody for all your thoughtful comments. I'll have the longest acknowledgement page in history for this book.

So here's Leesie's next poem totally in the rough. I'm guessing this will be the first part of the next chapter. I'm hoping to post all of chapter four on Monday.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Chapter 3 cont. - Enter KIM!

This was kind of tricky to introduce Kim again. Do you think the transition works or is too clunky? I think this will be the rest of chapter three. Chapter Four tomorrow.

MICHAEL’S DIVE LOG – VOLUME #10

Dive Buddy: Leesie

Date: 04/28

Dive #:

Location: Grand Cayman

Dive Site:

Weather Condition:

Water Condition:

Depth:

Visibility:

Water Temp:

Bottom Time:

Comments:

I wish I could go out to the East End—best diving on the island. North is good, too. Lots of eagle rays up there. But those guys will be long gone by now. I’m close to West end dives here. Lame by Cayman standards. Excellent compared to Thailand.

I borrow the center’s phone and call a guy we used to charter. Great. He’s got a boat going out at 10 AM.

“It’s a private charter, though.” He sounds like he’s trying to get rid of me. “Tough luck.”

“Wait.” I offer something no dive captain can resist. “Look, I’ll haul tanks, guide, set up all the gear. Whatever it takes. It’ll be the easiest day you ever spent on the water.”

“I don’t know, dude.”

I pull out my secret weapon. “Are there females in the party?”

He pauses—checking the list most likely. “Four.”

“Bring me along and they’ll be back.”

He laughs. “You can guarantee that?”

I’m so glad Leesie can’t hear this. “Just stating the facts.”

“This is Michael Walden?”

“Uh-huh.”

“Okay. You’re in. Remember the dock we pick up at?”

“Yup.”

“I’d do anything for you dad. He was the best.”

My eyes sting, but I manage to thank the guy without blubbering. “I’ll need gear, too.”

“Figures.”

The dive isn’t spectacular. The women are annoying, but still it feels fantastic to be breathing through a reg, finning over coral beds, relaxing in my native element where I don’t have to talk or think. Just be.

After, I swing by the hotel and pick up my laptop on my way to see Leesie. She’s not in her room when I get there, so I lounge on her bed, email Claude to ship me my junk—especially all that stuff I bought for Leesie. It’ll have to come by air or we’ll never get it. If Claude wasn’t such a jerk, I’d send him a ticket and have him bring it out here. But Claude is—Claude. No thanks.

I sign into ChatSpot, notice Kimbo69 is online, and decide it’s time to bring in reinforcements.

MICHAEL WALDEN / CHATSPOT LOG / 2:35 PM 04/28

liv2div says: hey, Kim…it’s Michael.

Kimbo69 says: Leesie’s Michael? Didn’t know we were friends. I’m so not talking to you.

liv2div says: I need your help.

liv2div says: you haven’t heard?

Kimbo69 says: Don’t tell me you’re back together.

liv2div says: Leesie crashed her truck driving home from BYU.

Kimbo69 says: What? Is she hurt?

liv2div says: lots of broken stuff…they patched her up…she’ll heal.

Kimbo69 says: Is she still in the hospital? I need to come see her.

liv2div says: she’s broken up inside worse…Phil was with her…you know, her brother…he didn’t make it.

Kimbo69 says: That’s horrible. Poor, Leesie. I can’t believe it.

liv2div says: she blames herself…won’t tell anyone what happened…not even me

Kimbo69 says: I’ll come visit today. Where is she?

liv2div says: she so messed up…she thinks God won’t forgive her…she’s turned her back on her famiy, all her Mormon stuff…begged me to sleep with her

Kimbo69 says: You CREEP! How could you do that?

liv2div says: I didn’t…and she got so angry at me…playing nice today but I don’t know what I’ll do if she gets like that again

Kimbo69 says: Leave it to me. I’ll talk to her.

liv2div says: she can’t really type

Kimbo69 says: Face to face, numbskull. What hospital is she in?

liv2div says: they released her Sunday night…she couldn’t bear going home…so we ran away together

Kimbo69 says: You kidnapped her?

liv2div says: rescued her…we’re both eighteen we can do what we want

Kimbo69 says: How did you even get back in the picture? What happened to your concubine?

liv2div says: don’t call her that…I helped Suki get out of a bad scene…that’s it…I never touched her

Kimbo69 says: Right. You got Leesie to believe that?

liv2div says: she believed it enough to send that missionary dude packing

Kimbo69 says: Crap. I was rooting for him. Not you. Not you. Not you.

liv2div says: whatever, Kim…hate me all you want…will you talk to Leesie?

Kimbo69 says: where are you guys…can I phone her?

liv2div says: Leesie won’t let me tell anyone

Kimbo69 says: Thailand?

Kimbo69 says: What happened to her arm?

liv2div says: Broken collar-bone. The arm’s okay. Her left hand is broken, too.

Kimbo69 says: It’ll be weird knowing you’re eavesdropping.

liv2div says: just don’t get gross

Kimbo69 says: Me? Never.

I don't have time to scan in the rough drafts today. Believe me, they aren't exciting. Are you getting a little tired of them? Yeah. I thought so. But I do want to share some great underwater pictures my hubbie took. These are Grand Cayman East End dives. Some of my favorite dives in the world. I'm the one in back wearing black flippy force fins.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Chapter 3 - A New Leesie's poem

This is still really rough. I blush to call it a poem. It's still kind of just broken up lines. There are flashes of poetic language and some nice images here and there, but right now it's more verse than poetry. But I need to push on with the story, so you're getting it half-baked. Just like I promised.

Chapter Three

LEESIE’S MOST PRIVATE CHAPBOOK

POEM #75 MR. SUNSHINE

Michael steers a wheelchair

into my room, waking me.

He pours pills down my throat.

“Come on, babe. We’re going

for a walk.”

I’m not talking to him

ever again. He’s wrong.

I’m right. And he’s going be sorry.

He picks me up, plops me

in the chair. Laughs when I scowl.

“How do you like you chariot?”

He ties my headscarf do-rag style,

straps on my ankle support boots.

I raise my eyebrows.

“In case you want to wade.”

He pulls a bottle of OJ out

of a grocery bag swinging from

his wrist and hands it to me,

kisses me when he bends to twist

the top off. “Forgive me?”

He’s so cute excited.

I can’t hate him when

he’s like this. The Ice Queen

relents. “Do I have a choice?”

“No.” He kisses me again.

“You’re stuck.”

My eyes swim. “No, Michael.

You’re stuck. I’m sorry I did this to you.”

He gets down on his knees and

lays his head in my lap.

“I don’t ever, ever, ever

want to hear you say that again.”

I can’t answer or I’ll cry.

I bend down and kiss the top of his head.

It’s damp. “What’ve you been up to?”

“I just got out of the ocean.”

“Saltwater therapy?”

“Yeah. It’s the best.”

“Earth to Michael—I can’t

go in the water.”

“But you can get close.”

His smile—so big and beautiful—

coaxes the corners of my mouth to

ease up for a moment.

His head tilts toward the bathroom.

“Do you need to go?”

I shake my head and sip my juice.

“You got up by yourself?”

“Twice.”

“That must have hurt.”

I shrug.

“Freak, I got to use the john.”

He dumps granola bars

in my lap. “I’ll be right back.”

He disappears into his room.

I drink all the juice, eat both bars,

listen to the sink, then the shower.

He returns scrubbed, shaved,

and glowing, garbed in garish

purple and lime green swimshorts

and an “I love Cayman” T.

My jeans feel cemented

to my body. “No fair.”

“Jealous of my snazzy outfit?”

“You’re clean hair.”

“We’ll take care of yours after

the walk—I promise.”

“You’re going to undress me?”

“Shh. It’s a surprise.

The beach is glorious.

Caribbean blue water,

even brighter than I remember

from the Keys. The wheelchair

gets bogged down in the deep,

dry sand. Michael powers

through it to firm damp beach,

pushes me right up to the surf’s

edge—a tiny wavelet swirls

around the wheels.

He tips back the chair

on its two big wheels,

ignores my squeals

and pushes me into the water.

The turquoise sea rushing in and out

uncovers a childish delight—simple,

pure, a bit tarnished and battered—but

I can feel. He keeps me out there

until his arms can’t hold the chair

up anymore.

Then those arms, moist with sweat

and ocean spray, free me from

confinement. We lie

on the damp sand, me

on my back gazing up at the flawless

blue sky. Michael on his side

staring at my face.

He leans over and sucks ever

so gently on my unblemished

lower lip. He stops too soon.

“Is my breath gross?”

“Yeah. You’re a mess. Sandy

now, too.”

“What are you going to do

about that? Dunk me in the ocean?”

“If that’s what you want.” He scoops me

up and runs towards the water.

“Stop it, Michael.” I pound on

him with my cast.

He pulls up short.

“How about nurses?”

“What?”

“I found you nurses.”

“You’re sticking me back

in a hospital? No way.”

“No hospital—I promise.”

He takes me to a short cement building

set down in a tropical garden—pink

bougainvillea spill from pots,

palms, high and low, fan out in all

directions, bright orange and yellow

flowers carpet the ground.

Inside—cool, clean elegance,

marble floors, wood-paneled walls,

paintings of ocean sunrises.

My room’s a plush prison—

white bed draped with gauzy netting

looks resort brochure not hospital bill.

“You’re leaving me here?”

“Nurses, babe. They can take

care of you. I can’t.”

“You didn’t even try.”

“You need physio and wound care,

pain management. I can’t do that.”

“How long?”

“At least stay long enough

to get cleaned up.”

He picks me up from my chair.

“You stink.”

“Now that’s romantic.”

He lays me on the bed.

I sink into a world of soft

feather luxury.

He leans over me with

encouragement leaking

from the corners of his grin.

“They’ve got a therapeutic

whirlpool you can soak in

all morning. Wouldn’t that feel nice?”

He’s starting to convince me.

“What are you going to do?”

He blushes under his tan.

“Oh, my gosh—

you’re going

diving?”

He bends low to give

me an enormous kiss.

“Please?”

“As if I could stop you.”

“Are you sure?”

“Get out of here.”

The smile that slips onto my face

as I watch him leave me

knows only him, only here,

only this moment.

Today, it’s enough.

I'm scanning the rough drafts for you, but while I wait I'm going to load some pictures of Grand Cayman. It's MY favorite place to scuba dive. We learned to free dive there, too. I did that solely because I was writing TAKEN BY STORM and Michael survived because of his mad free diving skills. My husband was great at free diving. I was AWFUL. You can read more about it and the trouble free diving go me into with Kirkus's reviewer in STORM'S STORY: Hyperventilation on my website.

Okay. Here's Grand Cayman: